Wednesday, December 5, 2012
To show thanks...
Boy do I suck!! It has been over 2 months since I have last wrote anything. I am fully in the swing of being a full time working mom. I still hate it but I can pay my bills and was able to get my baby girl some Christmas gifts. That is a perk right!? Pat is LOVING his job. He has friends that are adults and he is doing an excellent job and impressing his bosses.
As December hit, I can't believe it is almost 2013. It has been 13 years since Pat and I became a couple. 7 1/2 years since we married. And now almost 2 years since the most amazing, beautiful miracle came into my life.
Mia Grace is thriving. The wait for her was so long and SO worth it! I love watching her grow and learn. She is so funny with her little personality. She has so much love in her heart and is never afraid to show it to those that love her. She gives smooches and hugs and rubs my back when I hold her. She loves to be read to and we do so ALL the time. This week she started answering questions either "no" or "cool". Apparently in her wondrous little mind, "cool" means "yes". I love it! I, of course, correct her with every "cool" response, "yes ma'am" and she repeats best she can, but I do love to hear "cool" often.
She loves her Grandma, my mom, and has decided much to her dismay, that her name is now Gigi. Mom hated this at first, but I do believe it has grown on her. A few weeks ago, we had a girls day, breakfast, shopping, fun... the whole time we were out, 'Gigi' sang part of a Taylor Swift song OVER and OVER! I wanted to slice my ears off, but my little girl caught on to it. Now, anytime ANYONE says or sings the words, "Never, ever, ever", Mia responds quickly: "GIGI?" Ha ha ha!
I have so much I am grateful for in this life. I have bad days and weeks with my anxiety but I have the most supportive husband and a daughter that lights up my life. I could not ask for more.
Thursday, October 4, 2012
But WE get up again!
I am aware that I suck at this! I always have STUFF to say... but taking some time to myself is easier said than done!
So now, while my husband & pups snooze and my beautiful daughter catches up on some "Word World" I will put my thoughts out for... No one... to read.
Pat got a JOB!! We are back up from our knock down and he is so proud of himself and I couldn't be PROUDER! He is working 3rd shift a Target, and before anyone judges, it is perfect for him and us! He loves it and our daughter will continue to spend her early years with us and not in the hands of strangers.
Mia and I were very sick this week, her with ear infection and sore throat and me with migraine and nausea. What a Wednesday we had! Now we are both feeling slightly better and ready to enjoy our last 2 days off before I start working FULL TIME.
I am a nervous wreck about this full time business. WHY? I don't know. It is only really adding an extra day a week, but the thought of it terrifies me. I think it is just the idea of CHANGE. That is a scary word for someone with Severe Anxiety. I am being a baby, I know that in my head, but in my heart, i feel as though I am abandoning my family, my home. I will be in my home, but stuck in my office for hours on end. 40 hours a week.... is that really that much in the whole scheme of things?? I don't think so. That leaves 128 hours a week to sleep, keep my house clean, cook healthy meals for my family, teach my daughter, be a wife and relax. Honestly, I have a 30 second travel time to work, who else can say that!!?? I need to 'Man Up' and just be happy about the extra money we will be making and SAVING. The fact that soon... well within the next few months... we should have a substantial down payment and be able to purchase our own car! We are out from under that selfish witch who called us her friend, called my husband her family.
So, yes, one month ago, we received a frightening surprise blow from left field. But here we are, on our feet and ready to face the world. We can do this!
So now, while my husband & pups snooze and my beautiful daughter catches up on some "Word World" I will put my thoughts out for... No one... to read.
Pat got a JOB!! We are back up from our knock down and he is so proud of himself and I couldn't be PROUDER! He is working 3rd shift a Target, and before anyone judges, it is perfect for him and us! He loves it and our daughter will continue to spend her early years with us and not in the hands of strangers.
Mia and I were very sick this week, her with ear infection and sore throat and me with migraine and nausea. What a Wednesday we had! Now we are both feeling slightly better and ready to enjoy our last 2 days off before I start working FULL TIME.
I am a nervous wreck about this full time business. WHY? I don't know. It is only really adding an extra day a week, but the thought of it terrifies me. I think it is just the idea of CHANGE. That is a scary word for someone with Severe Anxiety. I am being a baby, I know that in my head, but in my heart, i feel as though I am abandoning my family, my home. I will be in my home, but stuck in my office for hours on end. 40 hours a week.... is that really that much in the whole scheme of things?? I don't think so. That leaves 128 hours a week to sleep, keep my house clean, cook healthy meals for my family, teach my daughter, be a wife and relax. Honestly, I have a 30 second travel time to work, who else can say that!!?? I need to 'Man Up' and just be happy about the extra money we will be making and SAVING. The fact that soon... well within the next few months... we should have a substantial down payment and be able to purchase our own car! We are out from under that selfish witch who called us her friend, called my husband her family.
So, yes, one month ago, we received a frightening surprise blow from left field. But here we are, on our feet and ready to face the world. We can do this!
Thursday, September 6, 2012
I get knocked down...
Well... here is to having something to write about....
My husband is a good man. A great man. 6 years ago he took on the task of being a full time 'Nanny' to 2 little boys. Dahmon was in grade school and Alec was getting ready to begin Pre-K. He has been through so much with this family, from potty training to two moves to new schools to a father's death. Five years ago, the family expanded and a third child was born, Andrew. Patrick stayed with them. He raised them. He has done homework, music lessons, more potty training, meals, bedtime, house cleaning, yard work. He was the MAN of their house. Yes, he was paid. Not a huge amount as you would expect for 14 hour days, but we received a company car and a deal on a house. A real house, mind you, with a yard with a fence and a garage and a playroom.
Pat's career enabled him to fall in love with 3 kids and mold their young lives. It also enabled him to keep his son with him all day, every day when he came for summers. And in this past two years, it enabled him to be able to bring our daughter with him everyday to work and not have to worry about day care or babysitting. This was a HUGE plus, especially since I have been trying to build my career.
On Tuesday, Pat went to work as normal. The boys were all in school, but he went over in the morning because his employer needed some cleaning done. After Pat cleaned her home, she informed him that she could no longer employ him because "times are tough". Seriously? Yes times are tough, we barely make it paycheck to paycheck as is and now we are being left High and Dry with a toddler and no car. Lovely.
Let me tell you, I went through the range of emotions. Scared, sad, livid and then I just felt for my poor husband. This man LOVES these children and didn't even get to say "Goodbye". He as risen to his feet and put in numerous applications already. I feel for him though, he has basically raised kids for the last 6-7 years and nothing else. Granted that was like 2 full time jobs, but will employers see it that way??
Pat hopped right up and has applied to NUMEROUS businesses within walking distance. God I love that man for his perserverence.
The old saying, "When one door closes, another one opens", is so true. I truely believe that God has a plan for us. I have been working for my company for 3 years. I started as a simple on call weekend person, moved up to part time and then to a part of the Training Team (which I love!). Today I got the call, I was offered a full time position. I was able to pick my own days and shifts and have a set schedule! I get to work from home and I could not be MORE THANKFUL!!
No matter how many times it seems that you get knocked down, it is always for a reason. God has a plan for us ALL!
My husband is a good man. A great man. 6 years ago he took on the task of being a full time 'Nanny' to 2 little boys. Dahmon was in grade school and Alec was getting ready to begin Pre-K. He has been through so much with this family, from potty training to two moves to new schools to a father's death. Five years ago, the family expanded and a third child was born, Andrew. Patrick stayed with them. He raised them. He has done homework, music lessons, more potty training, meals, bedtime, house cleaning, yard work. He was the MAN of their house. Yes, he was paid. Not a huge amount as you would expect for 14 hour days, but we received a company car and a deal on a house. A real house, mind you, with a yard with a fence and a garage and a playroom.
Pat's career enabled him to fall in love with 3 kids and mold their young lives. It also enabled him to keep his son with him all day, every day when he came for summers. And in this past two years, it enabled him to be able to bring our daughter with him everyday to work and not have to worry about day care or babysitting. This was a HUGE plus, especially since I have been trying to build my career.
On Tuesday, Pat went to work as normal. The boys were all in school, but he went over in the morning because his employer needed some cleaning done. After Pat cleaned her home, she informed him that she could no longer employ him because "times are tough". Seriously? Yes times are tough, we barely make it paycheck to paycheck as is and now we are being left High and Dry with a toddler and no car. Lovely.
Let me tell you, I went through the range of emotions. Scared, sad, livid and then I just felt for my poor husband. This man LOVES these children and didn't even get to say "Goodbye". He as risen to his feet and put in numerous applications already. I feel for him though, he has basically raised kids for the last 6-7 years and nothing else. Granted that was like 2 full time jobs, but will employers see it that way??
Pat hopped right up and has applied to NUMEROUS businesses within walking distance. God I love that man for his perserverence.
The old saying, "When one door closes, another one opens", is so true. I truely believe that God has a plan for us. I have been working for my company for 3 years. I started as a simple on call weekend person, moved up to part time and then to a part of the Training Team (which I love!). Today I got the call, I was offered a full time position. I was able to pick my own days and shifts and have a set schedule! I get to work from home and I could not be MORE THANKFUL!!
No matter how many times it seems that you get knocked down, it is always for a reason. God has a plan for us ALL!
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
In the beginning....
In the beginning, I wanted to be a teacher.... then a shrink, cop, cook... Now maybe just a mom and writer. Is this even a possibility? Maybe. Hundreds of people get 'discovered' everyday, right? Why can't I be one??
I am 30 years old. I have a husband that easily blows other husbands out of the water. I am the mother of 2 perfect, beautiful children. I love to cook and take care of my house and also work a full time job in the health care telecommunication world.
I don't yet know what I will write about, maybe a little of everything. After all, life with a toddler, teenager and 4 animals is never boring!
xoxo
I am 30 years old. I have a husband that easily blows other husbands out of the water. I am the mother of 2 perfect, beautiful children. I love to cook and take care of my house and also work a full time job in the health care telecommunication world.
I don't yet know what I will write about, maybe a little of everything. After all, life with a toddler, teenager and 4 animals is never boring!
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