But WE get up again!

I am aware that I suck at this! I always have STUFF to say... but taking some time to myself is easier said than done!

So now, while my husband & pups snooze and my beautiful daughter catches up on some "Word World" I will put my thoughts out for... No one... to read.

Pat got a JOB!! We are back up from our knock down and he is so proud of himself and I couldn't be PROUDER! He is working 3rd shift a Target, and before anyone judges, it is perfect for him and us! He loves it and our daughter will continue to spend her early years with us and not in the hands of strangers.


Mia and I were very sick this week, her with ear infection and sore throat and me with migraine and nausea. What a Wednesday we had! Now we are both feeling slightly better and ready to enjoy our last 2 days off before I start working FULL TIME.

I am a nervous wreck about this full time business. WHY? I don't know. It is only really adding an extra day a week, but the thought of it terrifies me. I think it is just the idea of CHANGE. That is a scary word for someone with Severe Anxiety. I am being a baby, I know that in my head, but in my heart, i feel as though I am abandoning my family, my home. I will be in my home, but stuck in my office for hours on end. 40 hours a week.... is that really that much in the whole scheme of things?? I don't think so. That leaves 128 hours a week to sleep, keep my house clean, cook healthy meals for my family, teach my daughter, be a wife and relax. Honestly, I have a 30 second travel time to work, who else can say that!!?? I need to 'Man Up' and just be happy about the extra money we will be making and SAVING. The fact that soon... well within the next few months... we should have a substantial down payment and be able to purchase our own car! We are out from under that selfish witch who called us her friend, called my husband her family.

So, yes, one month ago, we received a frightening surprise blow from left field. But here we are, on our feet and ready to face the world. We can do this!